A letter for future daughter

Dear future daughter,

  I am nineteen the day I'm writing this letter for you. You might be older or younger than I am now but it doesn't really matter.  It’s pretty weird for me because right now I'm having a hard time imagining myself as a mom. I’m not really sure what mom is supposed to look like but I'm sure that there are some non-negotiable elements of motherhood, if you will. Things like letting go of my selfishness, thinking of you first, and being there when you need me.   

  Again, I don’t know what motherhood really looks like, but I know what I’d like it to be. I want to be the mom you can turn to when you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to encourage. I want to be your biggest cheerleader and your most valued role model. I want to be by your side when  engaged, and the one you look to for help when you have your own baby. 

  In life, you don't always get what you want and things may not go as you originally planned, but I want you to know that it is not a necessary to have it all figured out now. That's just how it is. At this age, everything seems like the end of the world but trust me years from now, you will be laughing at yourself wondering why you worried that much. Don't forget to enjoy your present and remember that I will always, always have your back.

  My dearest, when the time comes, you will meet someone. He seems ordinary at the beginning but as time goes by, you will soon figure out that he was just, different. You begin to love every little things about him. The way he walks with his hands in his pocket, the sparkles in his eyes as he smiles and the way he's living his passion in football, video games etc.

 You will indeed grow strong feelings for him, you'll find yourself dancing in the room and imagining things you wanna do with him (which you're afraid to admit but that's okay).Then come this one day, you caught yourself asking "Is he the one?" I'm not saying that he is, nor I will say that he isn't. Because dear, neither I have the answer.

  

  Daughter, I won’t be perfect. I’ll break some of these promises sometimes. I might even lose my temper and yell. But I’ll make sure you know that no matter what, every minute of every day, I love you more than anything in the world, but right now I’m a mess, and I probably always will be. I’m still learning and trying to be the kind of woman you’ll be proud to have for a mom one day. And by the way, this is me when I was 2. Please tell me that you look exactly like your mum LOL

I love you, 

Ibu  

Mendekati redha

[ Janganlah kau bersikap lemah, dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang yang paling tinggi (darjatnya) jika kamu orang yang beriman. ]                

  Redha, berlapang dada dalam setiap perkara yang Allah berikan kepada kita. Tiada rasa terpaksa atau dipaksa bila buat apa yang Allah tetapkan dan berlapang dada dalam setiap kebaikan dan keburukan yang kita terima. 

Redha ialah apabila kita tidak lagi bertanya kenapa.

  Berbicara tentang redha, yang saya sendiri seakan masih tergagap berteka teki dengan hati. Yakinkah diri ini sudah benar-benar redha ? Bibir mudah menyebut redha, tapi hanya hati yang tahu payah. Mudah juga mendidik diri yang kadang ego kononnya aku redha. Tapi bila ujian datang lagi, terdetik di hati ya Allah kenapa aku ? 

  Bersangka baik lah dengan Allah. Menangis tak salah, sedih juga tak salah. Tapi senyum jangan dilupa, jangan pula ditinggal. 

Kemaskan langkahanmu, semoga terus istiqamah.

Diploma in Microbiology Part I

  Ever since the day I got the offer, my friends asked me to write a post regarding the course I'm pursuing but I can never really find time to write one. Now it's 5 am in the morning and since I got nothing else to do, I guess I'll start now.

  Now to answer your questions, yes I'm pursuing Diploma in Microbiology. Well, microbiology is the study of living organisms so basically I'm dealing with microorganisms on my daily basis (bacteria, virus, fungi etc). The course takes up to 6 semesters (including 4 months of industrial training) but I only finished up to semester 3 for now so I can't tell much sorry. And as for the requirement, you need to pass SPM and English subject with credits in :

1. Mathematics / Additional Mathematics
2. Chemistry 
3. Biology

    Being stupid as I am, I always thought bacteria, virus and fungi are the same thing LOL, But things get pretty interesting when I find out they are actually not. The thing that I love the most about microbiology is the fact that it requires lots of reading (and of course memorizing). And as I said reading, no you can't just depend on lecture notes. From now on, google is your bestfriend (I think this applies to all university students). Another thing is, it does not involve too much calculations. Excepts for semester 1, you will be dealing with pre calculus and as for the rest, you'll only be dealing with calculations in chemistry. Maka ketahuilah calculations in chemistry jauh lebih menyeronokkan. And of course, no physics HAHAHAHAHA I love my life.

  As for courses to pursue for degree, you do not need to worry much. For those who are interested in medic but didn't have the opportunity before, yes you are able to pursue degree in medicine. I, too plan to do so but lets see how it goes. Just a friendly reminder, pointer kena jaga ye dik. Sebaiknya 4 flat, nanti dorang hantar oversea (mak jah tak mampu T_T). Another options are degree in Biotech, Forensic, Medical Microbiology and such. As for Degree in Microbiology rasanya ada satu dekat UPM, dekat UiTM takde lagi. Dengar cerita coming soon kat Pilah juga LOL

   I'll update more on the study plan later on since I need to do it specifically so yes, it takes time, Till then, I hope this helps and take care.

Tour : Teluk Senangin

  I never see myself as an outdoor nor an indoor person. I am equally comfortable indoors & outdoors and I prefer a good mix of both. At some point of my life, I love being home. While at the other, I enjoy the beauty of nature.

  And I think there's no harm with it. Being an introvert as I already am, I prefer spending most of time in my room. It is not something to be proud of and I'm not saying that you should end up like me, no. I, too love spending time with my friends. All those crazy stuff and silly conversations. Girls just know how precious they are. 

As I said, I enjoy a little bit of both.

  Camping and jungle trekking is something I love to do with my family. It's like a simple yet perfect getaway for me. Well, why not ? Imagine those gorgeous turquoise water and nearly pristine sugar-white sand in front of you. The beauty of nature can simply capture attention, and I have no doubt on that. Just perfect, to avoid feelings.