I met you one day, we're a complete stranger before we started off as friends. Of course it wasn't love at first sight, I looked at you the same way I look at everyone else. Nothing extraordinary. The moment I realized everything, I already caught myself smiling whenever I heard your name. Or when I began to love mine whenever you said it. Or whenever my phone rings and it feels weird if it wasn't from you. Or when I went to the store and all I think about was your favorite things. Or when you were at your lowest point and I think of nothing but to run to you just so you will feel better.
Wait, why do everytime people made an attempt to describe love suddenly it just sounds so beautiful ? You know the truth is not. Love isn't all about all those beautifully unexplainable feelings, it doesn't always give you butterflies. You
wanna know what falling in love feels like, I’ll let you know. It’s about your
heart being ripped out off your chest. It’s about the pain buried inside like
it was meant to stay there forever. It’s about crying your heart out hoping the pain will eventually goes away but it never did and it never will. It’s like drowning just others don’t see it. It’s
about the ache that has been there for so long that you start wondering whether the wounds stop hurting or it’s you the one who get used to the pain
till it hurts no more.
People do not have the ability to appreciate things at the time they have it, people do not have the ability to love people who truly cares for them they always ended up pushing them away. People are so weak that they only have the ability to survive in regrets at the time they lost everything. And I do not wish to be one of the people you took for granted I refrain myself from showing that I care. I do not wish to do all the chasing because I know if I did, I’ll lose the one I wouldn’t risk for anything else in the world.
That one time when I gave you my attention, that was when I show that I care. Or when I couldn’t stop myself from constantly talk about you to my friends. Or when I pray for nothing but happiness for you. Or when I share my food with you. That, is simply the highest level of showing that I really care. You may not notice. You may misinterpret my fear as ego or arrogance I would never blame you for that.
Feeling isn't something that grow overnight. But maybe it took me too long to realize my own. Goodbye for now, goodbye for good. I hope you’ll do great in life because you are indeed a great man. No matter what path you’re taking, what decisions you have to make or who ever you might fall for next, you don’t have to look back to make sure if there’s anyone is there to give you full support because you know there’s at least one person who always does, always will.
People do not have the ability to appreciate things at the time they have it, people do not have the ability to love people who truly cares for them they always ended up pushing them away. People are so weak that they only have the ability to survive in regrets at the time they lost everything. And I do not wish to be one of the people you took for granted I refrain myself from showing that I care. I do not wish to do all the chasing because I know if I did, I’ll lose the one I wouldn’t risk for anything else in the world.
That one time when I gave you my attention, that was when I show that I care. Or when I couldn’t stop myself from constantly talk about you to my friends. Or when I pray for nothing but happiness for you. Or when I share my food with you. That, is simply the highest level of showing that I really care. You may not notice. You may misinterpret my fear as ego or arrogance I would never blame you for that.
Feeling isn't something that grow overnight. But maybe it took me too long to realize my own. Goodbye for now, goodbye for good. I hope you’ll do great in life because you are indeed a great man. No matter what path you’re taking, what decisions you have to make or who ever you might fall for next, you don’t have to look back to make sure if there’s anyone is there to give you full support because you know there’s at least one person who always does, always will.
